Payday loans - still need 'em

Well, my commissions from work are about 30% of what I received last year during the first six months of the year. So I've had to start borrowing from PayDay lenders again. I started borrowing again back in early May. The rates are in the neighborhood of 785% APR - it just chokes me financially. If I stop to think about it then I begin to panic and I dont have time for that. I've got to figure a way to start bringing in extra income. I've applied to Home Depot and a couple other places but didn't hear back from anybody. In the meantime I am going to have to ask a friend for a loan. I can pay 25 to 35% APR but not 785% APR - it's killing me.

No affair

Well, I must be going crazy. There is no affair. But that week I was really depressed and I could just not help feeling this feeling that I cant describe right now - just this deep, great sadness. Earlier in the week, that week of May 25th, I had gone with my Mom & Dad to visit the graves of my uncle and one of his friends. The cemetaries were so peaceful and beautiful. And it was a good day spending time with my parents - I hadn't done that in a very long time, just spending the day with them. When you get into your fifties, like I am, well, I just haven't done that in such a long time since I've been busy with raising my family.